What addiction feels like (A poem by Phanuel Ayelum)

An urge;

Is what I called it.

Until these feelings started to surge

And soon I couldn’t hold it

So I gave in.

Sensual desire got the best of me-

I took a shot at withdrawal

But it only returned pain and anxiety-

So I gave in.

This is a cell I’m enslaved in.

How do you escape something

Your mind establishes as a routine?

I’ve been turned into-

A puppet of my own body.

Constantly needing to-

Submit to it’s needs promptly.

An addiction;

Is what I came to call it.

I know that it’s bad

And yet constraint

Makes me mad-

And I’m;

Needing an escape-

From these escapist habits,

Yet I keep falling back into that hole

Like a forgetful rabbit.

I need-

To feed these needs of mine,

Just so I can get something-

Remotely close to a peace of mind.

But those are all lies;

Lies that I tell myself,

When I reach for self sabotage

And just can’t help myself.

Perhaps, all I really need;

Is someone to understand

That my body seems to act-

Out of my commands.

And I don’t know

Why I do what I do,

All I know is that-

I no longer want to…
By : Phanuel Ayelum.

Are you an addict?

Very often, when this question is posed, people tend to think of drugs (I’ve been “people” too). The truth however is that addiction is much broader than we give it credit for.

This week, Written Studios is bringing addiction under our artistic microscope to try and create an open conversation on the topic. We hope you can join us.

“What addiction feels like” is a poem on my perception of addiction but I look forward to hearing your thoughts so, please do let me know what you think of this in the comments section ❣️

Like this poem if you liked it, share and feel free to leave a comment, really, I appreciate it all!

Published by Phanuel Ayelum

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4 thoughts on “What addiction feels like (A poem by Phanuel Ayelum)

    1. Thank you so much for the insight, my interpretation of the subject is probably clouded by biases from my own experience with addiction. I will certainly write a sequel to the poem to give it more detail. Your feedback is highly appreciated.

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